Yabee

Here the dark comes,

and the xmas eve is getting nearer.

and i'm missing you,

my Yabee =(

wish that i could be there with you.

and,
most of my friend had went to sg for celebrating the xmas.
and i'm still in ipoh

冬至节快了 ＝）

祝大家冬至节快了，

吃了汤圆就团团圆圆，

那没的吃的呢？

好想好想为你送上热腾腾的汤圆，

好想让你在外里也感觉到温馨，

我的亚毕。

我。

我还是比较喜欢靠自己一双手赚钱的男人，

就像我爸爸，

白手起家。

懷念，懷舊，回想

很多時候只想活在自己的世界里，

永遠都這麼無憂無慮，

開開心心。。

可是現實永遠都是這麼殘酷的

殘酷喚醒了我！

相比以前的我和現在的我

確實改變了許多

種種的原因。。。

我想念我的父母，

我想念我的亞比，

我想念我的朋友，

我好懷念以前那種自由自在

愛玩，任性，調皮，愛搗蛋的我們

很多時候我都知道很多事都是身不由主

很多時候我都知道我不能再那麼愛玩，任性，調皮了，

很多時候我都知道我們都回不去了，

就只能懷念，懷舊，回想着從前

從前從前。。。

我們都有自己的夢

多年多年後。。

我們都能實現嗎？

我好还怕，

我害怕我有一天會失去我現在的一切，

我不想失去我的父母，

我要他們長命百歲。

我不想失去我的亞比，

我要和他白頭偕老。

我不想失去我的朋友們，

我要永遠和他們在一起！

我根不想沒有錢，

錢的確是萬能，

我相信！

我以你为荣！！！

终于拥有第一辆真真正正属于自己的新车！

我以你为荣！！！

我会。。

我会争取我要的东西到底。

October 18, 2010.

Do you still remember what i've told you last few days?

What you promised me.

and you didn't make it.

i bet you have forgotten what was it.

so busy?

i'm started to losing my way.

somebody pull me back please.

i've losing my mind 

my heart

and my soul.

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I just came back from kl just to attend my gor's wedding dinner

It's really awesome.

Awesome Days Awesome Nights Awesome Dress Awesome cousins Awesome Family!

THE CHEE'S FAMILY =D

this friday would be round 2 in Penang =) 

GET READY TO DRUNK EVERYONE !! 

YEAAAA

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ohyaaa..

its my brother's birthday today.

Happy Birthday SUI ZAI 

2010, october 13

每一件事情都隐藏着秘密

而秘密中还隐藏着更大的秘密

当所有的事情都变成了秘密

秘密就失去了意义

moodless

is feeling so moodless today

i wish to eat somethings to full filled me.. 

something nice, fresh, yummy, delicious and JENGS!!

wish someone could bring me out for breakfast lunch and dinner.

but i've eat nothing for today but porridge.

hate this kind of feelings.

moodless.

just view some tour guide's photos.

actually among so many places,

the only places i most wish to visit for long time was 

Italy - venice.

i love this place.

it let me feels peaceful and warm.

thru those picture, those building were awesome.

i wish to go for long time,

i wish to go for right now!

i love travel <3

i've went shopping with my cousin boon boon yesterday

and yet

we finally get our dress for gor's wedding..

after that we went jj for shoppin.

and i bought a blush from clinique

the totally i spend yesterday rm258 

its a small among to me. 

but i've finished all my pocket money

since don't know when i finished all my pocket money and saving 1k in  bank,

until today i didn't save any money already.

the money is just so NOT enough to use.

dim gai ?

dim gai !! 

dim gai nei gam lurn 7 fan geh???

sei chin lan da dou mm fong !! 

ngor yu siong nei hai ngor mm hou choi !!

有時知道太多事情也不是件好事

和事佬也不容易當！

真的不想那悲劇會發生，

太突然了，

我真的接受不到咯！

而且我也不相信她會變得如此得快啊！

還是先等我把事情搞清楚，

只聽一方面是不可以得，

一定要聽聽雙方面。

是和事佬还是衰人？

從昨天我就一直在想，

我到底該不該說出來？

？？？？？？？？？？

WasASuperDuperbHappyDayToday =)

WasASuperDuperbHappyDayToday =)

don't know how to describe here. 

i love you babee =)

can't wait for tomorrow again.

我就是這樣咯，

找不到衣服穿就不出門，

頭髮沒有吹美美不敢出街，

沒有好看的鞋子穿也不敢見人。

就是很愛一下的咯我。。

原諒我。

我明白，

要有付出才有回报，要割禾就要先弯下腰!! 

我永遠銘記於心！！
不怕辛苦，
只怕还沒苦就先放棄！

先放棄的人，

沒有權力說後悔！！！

爸爸说：

这个社会有太多的丛林法则，如果你不懂得，任何一条都足以让你头破血流。这其中有一条最隐秘最诡异的法则，如果你不知道，就算你赢了全世界，最后也能在无形中让你万劫不复，而这些最有资格也最值得你信任的，就是母亲要告诉你的话，所以每个女孩儿都应该记得，更应该懂得。

爸爸说：女人可以喜欢一个男人，但不可以爱上一个男人。

爸爸说：女人最大的敌人，不是时间，不是权利，不是金钱，甚至不是自己，而是男人和无法自拔的爱情。

爸爸说：除了我，和你将来的老公，谁也不值得你付出太多，为我付出，因为我给了你上半辈子的爱，为你老公付出，因为下半辈子的爱，将会是他来给。

爸爸说：不要为了一个男人哭，即使为了我，也不行，女人要把事业和梦想放在第一位，男人，永远是第二或第三。

爸爸说：可以让你的敌人知道你喜欢谁，但不要让她知道你爱上了谁，一旦这样，不仅是你，连你爱的男人都会有危险，这就是不能爱上男人的原因。

爸爸说：女人应该坚强，不应该只懂得哭泣，除非是你的至爱离你而去，你可以流泪，不然，谁都不值得。

爸爸说：做什么事都要讲究代价，人不为己天诛地灭，做一件事，要想想自己有没有利益，值不值得，做了你能得到什么，至少，你不能因为做了而失去什么，这样不值得。

爸爸说：女人可以学会喝酒，但是不管在任何场合都不能让自己喝醉。

爸爸说：要做个有品位的女人，就要做到举止大方，谈吐文雅，穿着干净利落，有内涵。

爸爸说：做人要低调，要知道枪打出头鸟，多想想自己出了头，会遇到什么问题。

爸爸说：女人也要有担当，每个女人身边都要有一个圈，站在这个圈里的人，才值得你用生命来守护，至于谁内谁外，就要看自己的本事了。

爸爸说：交朋友，不能交太纯的，不然你会慢慢被世俗的黄金外衣蒙蔽，只要你有能力，就要交奸而不诈，坏而不滑的人，因为这样，你才能时刻提防自己是否被他戏耍，是否被他玩弄。

爸爸说：在这个和平年代，没有战争，没有动乱，自然没有万夫可敌的英雄，人们衡量一个人的成就，往往看他的金钱和地位，所以，在不违背道义，不触犯法律，不昧着良心的前提下，不要放弃任何一个得到金钱和权力的机会。当今社会里最现实的一条法则，只看你RMB币的多少！

爸爸说：不要轻易相信任何人，在最危难的时候，除了自己的至亲，谁都不能相信，我们不会害你，别人，难说。

爸爸说：我要你做的，是一个贵族，而不是暴发户，所以无论你多么富有，无论你在什么地方，都要谦逊，礼貌，不卑不亢，虚心学习自己不会的，不懂得，只有这样，你才能不断进步，爬上巅峰。

爸爸说：在我百年弥留之际，我不要你保证有多富有，多有权利，但我要你保证，你已经具备了创造财富和得到权利的能力，这样，我才放心。

爸爸说：爱情，可以爱，但不要深爱。不要让你喜欢的男人影响到你的工作，也不要让你的工作影响的你喜欢的男人。

爸爸说：女孩子一个人在外闯荡，受了再大的委屈，也不要放弃，不要生气，要记在心里，早晚有一天，让他们全部连本带利还回来。

爸爸说：不要做让自己后悔的事，要做，就做让别人后悔的事，一辈子不长，如果尽活在回忆里了，就废了。

爸爸说：不要相信誓言，不要相信承诺，事实能证明一切，真正爱你的人，不会给你太多的誓言和承诺。

爸爸说：我最鄙视不孝顺的人，你也应该离那些不孝顺的人远一点，因为他们连自己的至亲都不在乎，怎么会在乎你这个外人？

爸爸说：别把自己看的太低，不如你的人多得是，别把自己看的太高，你不如的人多得是，你要做的，就是努力让前者变多，后者变少。

$$$

i saw someone's fb status.

Money couldn't buy Everything,

but

Without MONEY you are NOTHING !

很矛盾。

很矛盾。

真的很矛盾

想接觸不同的東西，

可是又很不捨得離開那裡，

在那里真的很開心的，

雖然偶爾會被那些小瓜們頂心頂肺氣到半死

可是我在那裡真的學到很多東西的，

而且我的老闆，

也就是我的老師

他教會我很多東西

算是對我有恩

每次打開報紙看到裡面時常都會聘請graphicdesigner，

又或者是photographer。。

很想去接觸這些東西，

尤其是關於攝影的。。。

怎麼辦？

我應該是做到畫展那天

"先敬羅衣，後敬人。"

Get me an iPhone4

Get me an Apple Magic Mouse

Get me a Lv 

Get me a Chanel 

Get me a Gucci 

Get me a Burberry

Get me a Longchamp or Coach

Get me one set cosmetic of Clinique

Get me all the pretty nice and unique perfume bottle for me

Get me a new Canon EOS 550 dslr

Get me a macro lens 

Get me an air ticket to London, Taiwan, Bali, Ausie and etc !

Get me a money machine, so that i could dna money in anytime !

Get me a Genie and change me into a billionaire

Alright, either choose one from above. Thankyou.

ohhhh.. i wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad!!

yea, what's my future is?

good question 

i don't know.

' my future is to get a job that could earn lots of money.. '

yea..

people who always says 

" money couldn't buy everything "

and i'll say

" without money you may suffer for it. "

Money couldn't buy everything

this is truth, money couldn't buy 

friendships, love, and times.

BUT

without money

how are you goin to survive in this cruel world ?

people nowadays who wants to be friend with you the 1st thing

they will definitely NOT bother how your pretty face look like,
but they will just look at what are you wearing,
what mobile are you using,
what branded are you holding,
what car are you driving?

"先敬羅衣，後敬人。"
my dad used to teach me when i was a kiddo.
now i recall back, yea.. what daddy says its really so truth.

my Babee is so pannai lea lately.. 

should present him something to encouraged him

but i'm totally broke le..

have to wait next month after i get my salary 1st.

=(

努力

我在努力着。。

為現在与未來地努力着。。

我有信心

我一定可以！

我們大家一起努力吧！

加油！！

煩人！！！ 別在煩我這凡人吧！

當你的身邊突然出現了某些人令你很厭煩

你會怎樣？

我真的很明顯地想要避開他的咯，

誰知道

竟然好像強力膠醬

黏着死都不放！

煩死人啦！！

sad.

i feels sad actually.

is that really important than me ?

YES ! 

i do understand you watch until half you wish to finish it.

but i miss you ar! 

i need you badly and i wants to hear your voice ar..

and what the respond you gave me?

you wants to finish your damn cartoon 1st.

FUCKING CHILDISH YOU!

i'm back to here.

I've been so few weeks never sign in my bloggie.

lots of things that i wanna post here but where should i start from?

alright

last saturday 28/8

i took ktm to kl alone.

just because i wanna go to klia to give my bff a surprise 

before she leaves on sunday.

and yet.

she's happy with everything we have did.

we bought her a cheerleader bunny for her.

the bunny name ' nie nie '

its suet mei's bf named it for the bunny when they bought in sg.

but i've gave her anther new name..

named ' dai luk '

hahahh.. she'll love it !

well..

she's leave msia to london already..

will come back after 1year.

no doubt.

i was crying badly in the 2nd place

karseng deserve the 1st !

hahahaha

hope that he could found uni in uk as soon as possible

if not he gonna meet wenny 1year later.

i was thinkin if im the one who leave.

what would happen~

hahahaha

sunday 29/8

after we leave klia we back to kl 

and we went T.s to have breakfast and then we go home and take a rest

it is because too tired.

around 3pm babee brought me go midvalley to have lunch in Sushi-Zen =)

japanese food my fav =))

after the lunch we went shopping also =)

around 1130pm smth i guess.

we have reached home and it was tiring for the whole day!

i went to bath 

but in the moment i bathing 

babee already plan everything

and he is setting everythin for my bday <3

suddenly the house is dark.

they switch off the lights and i thought they wanna sleep so i never think much too

and i was not expecting anyone would celebrate my birthday for me too

after i went in the room, babee rush in and says .. 

BEEE... HappY birTHday arrrr!!

and he wanted my to close my eyes and walk out to the livin room..

until i open up my eyes

woahhhhhh

secret recipi chocolate banana ehhh..

hahaha..

and it was a sweet litta surprise for me =))

singing birthday songs

make a wish

taking photos

although it was only a small celebration

i feel warm from them =)

thankyou for everything

especially bee..

30/8

we went to have breakfast and we went klcc

awwww..

i love everything there..

i love the chanel and the burberry bag!

i happy to been there

but

i end up my happy mood in just a second

i wanted to have all of them but i could'nt yet

='(

in night we went klcc too.

and we have dinner at Chili's

yummmyyy..

but babee's is more delicious!

after dinner we went outside the klcc

just to wait countdown the National Day

and wait for the fireworks

every year they will have fireworks there.

bt this year.. NON OF THEM WTF

but it still okay..

we have took lots of photo also..

31/8

i gonna back ipoh ler.

byeee babeee..

its very happy these few days in kl =)

love you  deep

yesterday

i went snooker with my boss and colleague

this is my 1st time play snooker

i wanna to play long time but dont have a chance.

ohhhghooshhhhh

it was so syok

so fun 

and im so addicted

although i don't know how to play

but i will learn it !

i love it !

anyone?

will anyone remember my birthday ?


wish to celebrate with all my friends and babee.


but it seems no chance to celebrate with my friends..

im back

WOAHHHHHHHH!!

 so long i never blog here already!!

hahaha..

its because im lazy + busy on my final project.

and finally i've finished my final project 1, 

after all..

i never did well in my presentation.

i swear..

this comin final 2 i have to prepare as well as i could ! 

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GOODNEWSSSSSSSSSSS!!

i miss my beeeeeeeeee so much arrrr..

he went to china for travel around 5days

is on the flight now coming back to msia 

will reach kl around 1a.m later =))))

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and here's a 

BADNEWSSSSSSSSSSS!!

wenny will goin to uk on this 29 august.

one more day will be my bday =(

and her flight is 10a.m 

haihz

i thought if its night's flight then i can go kl after my work 

and rush to airport there send her =(

this is what i wish now..

i am so mm sek dak her

perhaps i will go sung her before she depart from ipoh to kl ?
i wish to sung her flight.. badly!


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my bday is comin ..
wish to celebrate this year..
but seems all the friends had gone..
planning celebrate at kl..

can i get a super duper unforgetable bday ?
hahaha

is thinking to get myself something as my birthday gift
i have too much things in my wishlist now!!
arghhhhhh!!!
but the things i wants i sure not enough money to get it.
ahhahaha..
is saving money to singapore actually.
but..
how much i can save from now until the day i go sg huh?
ahahahha!

alright..
i know what birthday wish i should make this year.

I WANNA BE A MILLIONAIRE SO FARKING BAD!!!

Still have the chance to travel all around the world ? =)

不懂为什么

"不懂为什么，用过午餐后就闷闷不乐。我问自己到底是什么影响我现在的心情，可是没有答案。功课？感情？金钱？

还以为想做功课但是没有那股推动力，想起全部功课得在下个星期完成我就疯了。担心时间不充足，想休息但是有不够时间。唉，我到底几时能休息还有想过我想要得生活？答案是什么？

明天还要赶功课，想起都可怕。我多么的期望我所有功课已经赶完了～ 唯有加油，为自己打气。虽然是很多但是都必需完成下去，做到最好吧！"

this is what i found from my friend's blog

what her feeling now was what my feeling now ~

一起加油吧！！

i feels like crying so badly nowwww

arghhhh

assignments arrrr

18days to countdown 

and i'm dead soon.

GOD BLESS ME PLEASE!

june 28

imisshim

imisshimbadly

imisshimdeeply

imisshimlikecrazy

butnothingicandowiththis

Mostofthetimeimafuckingneedshimsofuckingbadly

butheisnothere

itsfuckingmoodyrightnow

crazyinlove.

how come gucci in singapore have discount

50% some more ?

w t f .

MONKEY MIA

Hey

does anyone know where is Monkey Mia?

hahahha..

i think not more than 3 person will know where is the place huhh..

Monkey Mia is a popular tourist resort located about 800 km north of Perth, Western Australia. 

its freaking niceeeee!!

i was so os so sosoososoooo fall in love in this beautiful place..

no doubt. beach is really a beautiful natural place..

but ... i really afraid of the big SUN lorhh..

nowadays the sun are so poison..

especially to ladiess =)

but this Monkey Mia its really awesomee!!

how does it feels?

AWESOME!!!!

and everyday there will have some dolphin swim near to the beach and show off themselves =))

我也一樣愛你。

很久都沒有在這裡提到你了。

我的babee ＝）

原本昨晚是真的很氣很氣！！

可是後來的今天早上看到facebook，

他post了這個

”你是我最深爱的女人 你有最美丽的嘴唇 你拥有最动人的眼神 你带给我幸福和快乐
我是你最深爱的男人 我的爱绝对是永恒 做什么都值得 爱上了Leeyi Chee“

這其實是一首歌

可他偏偏就愛用在我身上 ＝）

看了自後，

甚麼氣都消了

我也一樣愛你。

壓力。

爸媽一直要我去考IELTS

就是那個

International English Language Testing System.

我好像全忘記了。。

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！

有種衝動想要往新加坡那裡發展去。

不是被朋友影響，

而是重來沒說出口而已。。

June 18 2010

心情昨天才剛好回一些，

很可惜今天又走掉了。

事情还沒搞清楚之前，

不要亂給期望別人。。

免的別人過度興奮，

到最後得到的只是

大大大大的失望。。

June 17 2010

Went out whole day with sun

our target is wants to get a present for wenny..

at the end we get nothing for wenny but we bought somethings for ourself.. hou yea mou?

hahahhah

so happy ler todayy..

i so love my ear rings arr..

i bought 2 pair of them

all is rose rose lei ge..

call me ' Rose jie ' 

yeaaa..

im so in love my ear rings..

so match with my hair..

muakssss! 

omg.. i have so much things wants to buy gam..

i dont wan buy clothes already ler... 

i feels so scary now.. 

my wardrobe is goin to fall soon..

seriouslyyy !!

no more places for me to hang my clothes alreadyyy larrr...

and now i wish to get an iPhone. 

yeayeayeayyayeaaaaaa...

cancancancancancnanannnnnnn ?

i wan i wan i wan got youuuuu~





night.
when mummy is driving me to pm she told me will goin sg end of this month
maybe larr..
bring me there to visit the nafa.art.academy there.
woww..
sounds nice?
good news or bad news ?

15/6/2010

is not happy at all.

Woke up this morning and feeling so farking tired.

suppose to go college today

but i end up my decision 

i off my alarm and get  back to sleep

the whole night i can't sleep 

i went to bed from 12.30am

i was keep rollin here and there..

when i look at my clock

wth~

it was already 2 something AM

goshhh

wth is goin on in my mindd..

lots of things popping out.

and yet.

i was blur now..

once i open my lappie i get into Apple website.

yea.. i was checking out the new iPhone 4

before this i was wish to get an iPhone badly.

i compare the iPhone 4 with the iPhone 3Gs

i realize that the iPhone was a very powerful machine.

its not only iphone actually.

all the products from Apple was greatest machine for me =)

Can i get 1 ? 

in my dream ..

hahaha*

i have too much things that i wanted.

and now i love this songs badly too.

 ' Billionaire by Travie Mccoy '

he started his lyrics with this

' I wanna be a billionaire so Fucking bad,

Buy all the things i never had. '

nice lyrics!

yes. imma crazy in branded. you can't stop me.

its really upset .

what do you mean by JUDGE?

Awww..

i love my heathy-blackie-straighty hair =))

'she's getting longer liaooo.

how much i miss herrrr!

will not make it to short currently.

just wants to long like last time when i was still secondary school =)

love it love it !!

is doin final assignments now.

i have no ideaaaa...

feels siennn 

home aloneee..

hate this damn feeling..

it sucks!

wish to wear leng leng and hang out .

=(

Aiksss..

August another bff is goin to Uk ler..

there's her.. Wenny the Wong.

wth..

haihz.. 

next friday will be her 21st birthday.

i think she will not come back that fast after went to uk.

she doesnt hope to come back msia once she went to there..

and yeaa..

She will be celebrate her birthday with her lovely one - kar seng in Phuket =)

so nicee..

how sweet was it..

Seng.. you seems reached the level ler

no need to worry much like last time anymoreee..

YOU MADE IT !! CONGRATS!

=)

jealous sei yan 

awww..

the new badge of Imagine girl is so freaking nice leaaa!!

especially this dress..

i fall in love with it =)) 

and i don't have such style of dress..

where can i get this in Ipoh ner? 

i know what i want.

well

i always know what i want.

its not LV GUCCI that simple..

its always in my mind in my heart which i never told anyone before,

anyone can give me what i want?

how bout let's do it by myself rather than waiting someone ?

chee leeyi.. keep on goin !

Don't mess with me when i'm farking hell down~

Mood Doesn't feels good since the day before yesterday til now =(

I dislike to talk while i really moody,

Don't force me to talk .

I know you are having the same condition as me - moooooooody ..

I can't help you..

i can't console you..

i can't make you smile 

WHILE I'M DOWN !

Perhaps i'm not a good girlfriend. 

that's all..

Bff =)

Finally

Yan is gone

she leave at 9am this morning

and i had bid farewell for her at the bus stop..

we dropped our tears together,

i suppose to cry out loud,

but i keep control myself..

yea, honestly sometimes the things she did is really makes me feels hates.

but 7 years friendship is ain't easy to get it.

i try to appreciate it.

its really ain't easy to make it until today's BFF =)

before this morning,

which means last night we had make a small farewell for her too =(

we make it at Lush.

is only feel of us ..

me, sun, yean, evin, pui san, yan and her family..

i dont have the feel to club actaully, 

but once i stay with them i feel warm ..

really =)

i can do whatever i like

i can say whatever i want

its so free & relax more than staying with your family or bf =X

i not mean staying with family or bf doesnt feel free or relax.. 

but bff does =)

omg. 

its june now. 

how many days i left?

5 weeks.

dew lorhh ??

31st MAY 2010

Is more enjoy our previous life.

you got no stress.

no trouble coming to you.

get up in your car and go wherever we like.

eat whatever we like.

do whatever we like.

free like a bird =)

everyone is seems changing.

and i'm the one seems doesn't change anything yet.

Karyan is going to singapore this sunday

she will starts her new life there.

Wenny is going to UK in this coming August

Karseng is goin along with her too.

they will starts their new life there too.

So,

how bout Chee Leeyi?

i feels stress and pressure coming everyday

i couldn't sleep for N-nights.

when is night and alone, 

my mind will keep started to think lots of things.

i am so worry for my own future.

what it will gonna be like ?

like a shit?

i am so worry...........

i wish to talk with someone.
i need someone to wake me up.
please!

I M L O S T

i started could not stable myself .

why

what happened 

i m worried.

i was shaking once something bad happened on me, 

i was keep on shaking and hitting things like a monkey

just because i've lost my assignment.

i din't save my assignment.

and i left 6 weeks. 

what can i do ?

keep on eating is that good for me? 

i hold my fist so hard..

it seems like preparing to hit something around me.

is getting serious. 

i can't calm down on myself even a small thingy happend.

i m feeling so depression.

the feelings is so hard.

i need someone to guide me .

i need someone to care me

i need a professional to consult me.

i've lost my way.

I M L O S T 

weird

So weird and so different in this morning

did i say something wrong ?

dew

why always like this?

why people can i can't.

this is the question i always ask myself.

why?

moody to the max !

exam & travel related?

dew

totally broke

SHIT!

i'm totally broke now!

totally!

stop me from buying clothes and unnessary stuff .. 

i left rm130 now, 

those money i have to pay for my friend for the clothes one.

sei mm seiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!

where my money goes?????????????????????

Is going to interview a new job on monday,

don't know what it gonna be .

it's a engraving company,

they need graphic designer,

my friend and i will go for the interview on monday.

i don't mind starts everything from 0.

starts everything from the lowers,

that's the way from learning things .

if the job is on,

so i'll be having two part-time job now.

huiiiyuhhhh..

sounds hardworking huhhh...

can earn some pocket money mer.. 

hehehhe..

i don't wan to be POOR arrrrrrrrrrrrr....

=(

hou cham ga... 

幸运之家 （house of mentally handicapped )

Well after all, its still not bad for me today,

although babee went back to KL once again,

before that we went to visit 幸运之家 

which is the house is for those who had mentally handicapped (弱智)

people there average around 80 of them

babee bought some snacks, foods, rice and also some daily articles such as body soap, tooth paste, and also come washing powder to donated.

This is 1st time i went to a place like this,

and Of course i'll feel afraid la.

beside afraid i really feels sad for them, look at their face their action,

the way they talk, the way they asking food and money from us..

outsides will think that they are so so so pity,

but actually they doesn't think that themselves were pity ..

their little mind were naive, they doesn't think as complicated as we could.

they were so simple.

what they think for everyday is eat and sleep..

unfortunately we din't bring camera today 

and also the place there do not allow us to take photo(s).

some of them are so nice and friendly,

they saw visitors like us come they will feels so happy..

they came and shake hand with us,

although i feels afraid, at the end i also got shake hand with them..

there was few of them that not that serious mentally handicapped

they can helped to take care or doing house work ,

especially the little girl, she wants paul to sayang her head ..

besides that,

what we saw there's a few indian woman working in the kitchen,

i think they are be responsible for cooking meal for all of them.

but they bully one of the patient there.

luckily the patient not having too serious of mentally handicapped,

he can still either escape or scold the indian woman back.

How sad when you saw this by your own eyes.

Hope all this unfortunately people could live happily until the end.

babee's birthday eve =))

have a nicieee day with LEE SUN SUN today. =))

i went out since morning until evening 5pm just now.

after bath and i was so tired now.. just nap for half hour i think..

and now waiting babee come pick me up =))

Babee.. 

3 more hours to go and its your 22nd BIG DAY lur..

my little old man =P

i have prepare a present not much surprise lo..

hope you will love it.

Babee..

early here to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

april 27

吾开心，

看靓衣就会开心返，

有得买锺开心！！













好像。。。
真得越来越远了。

13 april

This is 3rd week that i've started my Graphic Design Final Project 1.

until today my logo still not out yet.

can you see how lazy am i ?

im telling myself no rush work this time.

i have put more afford on this final

Let's ga yao together guys!!

It's time for me to get a right Design Company for doing some part time.

as i know my college principal told me there's a quite big company in Jelapang is vacancy freshman and students.

is not that far from my house too right.

after my IELTS course i will go look for it.

hope to get a good experience in design.

principal told me that the company is trying to train ppl and work for them..

that's good right?

i am just looking somethings like this.

another thing i have to worry is my IELTS course exam.

RM560 for the test..

if i fail . 

rm560 wil be GONE !!

4 more lessons to go only..

i seems not enough time for preparing the exam.

how?

i wish to collect lomo camera nehh..

so cute..

especially the fish eye's

is just around rm270 - 350 like that..

i feels that cheap lorh..

dammit

I'm wrong.

I'm really wrong.

dammit.....

the lessons that i've took this aftn in ilti was about categorising love.

we are reading and discussing this passage today ..

Love in terms of the interplay between three independently quantifiable aspects

there were : passion, intimacy and decision/commitment. 

passion as the romantic and sexual components of a relationship.

intimacy is the degree of closeness a person feels for another.

decision/commitment concerns both one's decision about being in love with a person and,

once in an established relationship with that person.

if you had these 3 things, your relationship definately will last long FOREVER.

i want my relationship last long FOREVER this time.

i will never ever let go..

i'm sorry for these few days for being cold to you.

could you just ignore me?

i'm failed to be a nice good caring lovely girlfriend,

i'm just a trouble-maker for you.

how am i going to be a good wife and mummyin the future?

how do i could control my temper?

it's too over ; im too over already.

i've hurt you .

the way i talk its really hurts..

i know........

你要过的开心 还是 你要有很多钱？

你要过的开心 还是 你要有很多钱？

问得好。

或许有人真的会这样说：" 破产但很开心，就让它破产吧！ "

我本人绝对不同意，
只要是这种说法的人都让我觉得那人好像完全没斗志似的，

人往往就是这样，

说倒是容易，

可是你办得到吗？

一天如果你面对的竟然是如此的遭遇，

我并不绝的那时候你会是开心，

反而还会埋怨和不愤。

破产不是一件小事，

破产能让你一无所有！

我相信在这世界里，

10个里，9个都不能接受！ 

要是破产，

每天过着吃不饱的日子，

被人羞辱，

被看不起，

严重的还可能会家庭破裂，

家破人亡。

请自问一下自己，

你还会开心吗？

要知道

人是很现实的，

尤其在现在这现实生活中，

我就是其中一个，

妈常说做人是要现实一点，

不然会很吃亏。

我会选择很多钱～

有钱不是万能，

没钱就是万万不能。

我需要钱，

我还有很多很多地方还没去，

我还有很多东西还没买，

一切还是要靠自己。

别人给不到我的东西，

没关系，

我也不会靠任何人或等你来给我，

到不如我自己来。

我可是要我的将来比现在还要好！

U-P-S-E-T

i don't know what's wrong with me being emo from monday - wednesday.

 # maybe i'm too missing you?

# maybe i'm purposely to get moody?

# maybe i'm worrying of you ?

yes..

i'm worrying of my babee.

Do you know?

what i want to tell him 

i'm already told.

did he really get it .

i not sure.

Last night someone had told me that he just get a part-time job as well.

its selling japanese stuff which named shojikiya if i not mistaken..

which is he worked when he is still having his college life..

well..

as long as he is happy..

he posted on his fb status " 醒 "

which means wake up,

is that means that he really wake up from the dreams and face to the reality?

Honestly, since the day i knew him, 

i always feels that this little man he is so briliant, smart, clever, and even handsome!

he have a super business brain which i saw .

he is independent 

he love his parents especially his mummy as well

he was a distinction student in his diploma cert

i was so so so and so admire him

you know..

that time i was gussing what would this little man's future would be?

i was guess..

hmmm..

he should get a good job,

and earning lots of money which he wishing it for so long.

and that time he will just enjoy his life ..

but guess what?

what i saw today is totally different from him

totally different ....................................

he end up his education right after his diploma

distinction best student..

do you feels that its really a kind of wasted??

Although i know he is because of some problem and gave up his higher education.

i believe,

if he continue his degree level.

today everything will just totally different.

every single time when he told me the way to be rich

i will just smile or keep myself silent.

it doesn't mean that i'm not agree or support what he said.

its i felt that we should " step down to earth" 

脚踏实地

而不是每次就只是靠那张嘴一直讲一直讲，

而是要行动啊。

我知道你都有在努力，

一直都在付出，

可是一直以来你所做的都真确吗？

每一次你做不同的东西时候就一直说很好很好，

一定赚很多的

最后呢？

有梦不是坏，

梦到不会醒就是大错特错！

搞清楚你要的到底是什么！

不要一直说不知道！

你知道的。

我们都在为你担心

心疼

I've dropped tears all the time while typing on this blog.

好友难找啊，要珍惜～

上个星期五去了好友工作的地方找她午餐，

虽然平时也没什么见面的我们，

可是见到面的时候，感觉上还是很好很好

没心机，单纯，傻傻带点幽默感的她和我

一直谈，一直笑，一直谈。。

什么都谈，就是没说别人的坏话啦。。

我最喜欢就是可以和她直话直说，

因为我根本就不用在她面前隐瞒我自己

时间还过得真快，

要不是我赶着要去做工

我真的很不舍得离开的。。

或许这就是所谓的“知心好友”

别人常说，知心好友真的很难找的。。

真的。。

又是那句，

很怀念以前啊。。

曾经和她发生过一些很非常超级不愉快的事。。

从来就没想过这种事尽然会发生在我们身上，

还以为只有拍戏是才会有。。

一直好好的我们，

而只从那间事过后，

我们之间就好像多了条疤。。

还好现在的我们也没事了，

或许我和她的友谊不比心仪来的好，

我都已经不介意了，

看开了嘛 =））

那么那条疤也算是值得吧？