Monday, May 31, 2010

31st MAY 2010

Is more enjoy our previous life.
you got no stress.
no trouble coming to you.
get up in your car and go wherever we like.
eat whatever we like.
do whatever we like.
free like a bird =)

everyone is seems changing.
and i'm the one seems doesn't change anything yet.

Karyan is going to singapore this sunday
she will starts her new life there.
Wenny is going to UK in this coming August
Karseng is goin along with her too.
they will starts their new life there too.

So,
how bout Chee Leeyi?

i feels stress and pressure coming everyday
i couldn't sleep for N-nights.
when is night and alone, 
my mind will keep started to think lots of things.
i am so worry for my own future.
what it will gonna be like ?


like a shit?


i am so worry...........




i wish to talk with someone.
i need someone to wake me up.
please!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

I M L O S T

i started could not stable myself .
why
what happened 
i m worried.
i was shaking once something bad happened on me, 
i was keep on shaking and hitting things like a monkey
just because i've lost my assignment.
i din't save my assignment.
and i left 6 weeks. 
what can i do ?
keep on eating is that good for me? 
i hold my fist so hard..
it seems like preparing to hit something around me.
is getting serious. 
i can't calm down on myself even a small thingy happend.
i m feeling so depression.
the feelings is so hard.
i need someone to guide me .
i need someone to care me
i need a professional to consult me.

i've lost my way.
I M L O S T 

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

weird

So weird and so different in this morning
did i say something wrong ?

Monday, May 17, 2010

dew

why always like this?
why people can i can't.

this is the question i always ask myself.
why?

moody to the max !

exam & travel related?
dew

Friday, May 7, 2010

totally broke

SHIT!
i'm totally broke now!
totally!
stop me from buying clothes and unnessary stuff .. 
i left rm130 now, 
those money i have to pay for my friend for the clothes one.
sei mm seiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!
where my money goes?????????????????????

Is going to interview a new job on monday,
don't know what it gonna be .
it's a engraving company,
they need graphic designer,
my friend and i will go for the interview on monday.
i don't mind starts everything from 0.
starts everything from the lowers,
that's the way from learning things .
if the job is on,
so i'll be having two part-time job now.
huiiiyuhhhh..
sounds hardworking huhhh...
can earn some pocket money mer.. 
hehehhe..
i don't wan to be POOR arrrrrrrrrrrrr....
=(
hou cham ga... 

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

幸运之家 (house of mentally handicapped )

Well after all, its still not bad for me today,
although babee went back to KL once again,
before that we went to visit 幸运之家 
which is the house is for those who had mentally handicapped (弱智)
people there average around 80 of them
babee bought some snacks, foods, rice and also some daily articles such as body soap, tooth paste, and also come washing powder to donated.

This is 1st time i went to a place like this,
and Of course i'll feel afraid la.
beside afraid i really feels sad for them, look at their face their action,
the way they talk, the way they asking food and money from us..

outsides will think that they are so so so pity,
but actually they doesn't think that themselves were pity ..
their little mind were naive, they doesn't think as complicated as we could.
they were so simple.
what they think for everyday is eat and sleep..

unfortunately we din't bring camera today 
and also the place there do not allow us to take photo(s).

some of them are so nice and friendly,
they saw visitors like us come they will feels so happy..
they came and shake hand with us,
although i feels afraid, at the end i also got shake hand with them..

there was few of them that not that serious mentally handicapped
they can helped to take care or doing house work ,
especially the little girl, she wants paul to sayang her head ..

besides that,
what we saw there's a few indian woman working in the kitchen,
i think they are be responsible for cooking meal for all of them.
but they bully one of the patient there.
luckily the patient not having too serious of mentally handicapped,
he can still either escape or scold the indian woman back.

How sad when you saw this by your own eyes.
Hope all this unfortunately people could live happily until the end.